The death

You will never know that
You were like a dream in my life.
You will never know that
I did not assume that I need you so much.
You will never know that
Every day I am writing to you.
You will never know that
It is not so easy to let you go.

All is Okay.
I will never cry.
I will smile
Looking in the sky.
We have a lot of time
To find our way.
Who knows
What awaits us in the future.
But I believe that
All these years
You felt my support.

I let you go,
I let you go forever...

What they are searching, what looking for?
Blind stars of wisdom - blind glance of open sore?

They want to hear your human pleads?
When every night you keep repeats
the words for mercy to the Lord,
and every single, branded word
pure despair floating through your throat?

Or they awaits when you smash up
with simple feelings filled cup?
When you breakdown, when you collapse
When you breath out «No more…enough!»

But no, you wrong.
They don’t intend.
They just the stars, they...

Silence is round me, wideness ineffable;
White birds on the ocean diving and wandering;
A soundless sea on a voiceless heaven,
Azure on azure, is mutely gazing.

Identified with silence and boundlessness
My spirit widens clasping the universe
Till all that seemed becomes the Real,
One in a mighty and single vastness.

Someone broods there nameless and bodiless,
Conscious and lonely, deathless and infinite,
And, sole in a still eternal rapture,
Gathers all things to his heart for...

I don't promise you
That I will love eternally.
You look in heavens blue.
Feel me today internally.
Light music of my soul.
Play tenderness of touch.
Once we have lost control,
Now we should know how much.

I searched for you everywhere.
I waited for you set of years.
I needed you as in air.
I listened to music of spheres.
Our eyes have met,
It's absolutely the other world.
You're mine, you're sweet.
We are two parts of a single whole.

Your passion has spread wings,
We will...

Forgive; forgive me, o my bonnie lass
For my unwritten messages and letters.
Years, like thunderclouds, pass,
A-freeing us from our fetters.
Forgive me your severest heartache,
My arrogance, which caused you to feel so;
Inside your mind there rages an earthquake,
Which can be subdued by sympathy alone.
The day will come, and we will be united
According to the will and by the pow’r of Him,
Who sent us forth into this world enlightened
From His Celestial Kingdom of Eden.
Eternity will...

Awakened, I'm dreaming of my sleepy day :
The "how I walk" and the way that I breath..
To nod and to follow in somebody's wake -
The less proper meaning of what my life is.

Моё время на исходе,
Дух твой жаждет сжечь меня.
В беспробудном сне иль в коме
Догорает жизнь-свеча.

Пусть змеёй петля обнимет,
Заберёт последний вздох.
Кто проклятье наше снимет?
Кто застанет смерть врасплох?

Время вышло. Гневный Цербер
Проявляется в бреду.
В рай не пустят верь/не веруй,
Да и ждут ли здесь? В аду?

Спой мне песню. Спой о смерти.
Ведь судьба предрешена.
Song of death - глаголют черти,
Ад закрыл свои врата.

Мы с тобою два фантома.
В жизни-смерти счастья...

Believe me I will love you when you grow old,
I’ll love you anyway, even you totally bold.
I’ll love you if you be weak and poor,
I simply love you for no reason, be sure.
Believe me, you’re the most handsome man,
Don’t repeat stupid word which you said.
Your eyes & your smile is like heaven,
I wish I could look at it ever & ever.
I will remember you for all of my life,
You gave me the reason to feel myself alive.

May this be true,what I believed,
is no more sense to what I need.
I thought of best, of common wealth,
instead,I have not much to loose but health.

There isn't much to give or take,
all what I could what done for goodness sake.
The falling rain drop after drop,
go down to earth and burst in pop.

My hopes were doomed to sink in well,
alike the burning chains of hell.
Still I do live and keep my pride,
my dream- is secret in my mind.

Searching for pacification,
need inside of you.
Getting back humiliation,
from the one surrounding you.

Pleased with what you have,
thinking that you're gifted.
Is that all, that you can have,
on your way that's drifted.

There's obstacle inside ourselves,
dealing with the problem.
Never let it go itself,
don't rely at random.