The death

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes...
Where the pain that you feel?
It's in our hands.
I don't know what to do,
So just give me this chance,
And when I'm around you,
I know, this is my place.
Don't wanna wake up today,
Don't wanna think about my sorrow.
Just for one more day,
One more day with you...
Don't wanna think about tomorrow.

When we say goodbye I feel empty.
I feel like I am nothing, but lonely.
When we say goodbye I realize
How much I love you and how much I care for you.
When we say goodbye, I realize what it would be without you.
I don't ever want to say goodbye,
I only want to say goodnight and see you in the morning.

Have I ever felt that weak as I take a look at child?
Feeling tenderness and love, filling up my heart and mind
Have I left my soul in baby that would not allow forget her?
Though it’s been a year now since I left her…since I left her…

Want to kiss her hands, her fingers and embrace her very tender
Want to be her dad, her friend, any kind of surrender
Realize my guilt and blame all the steps I made like blind
Pray that God will not apart me with my one and only child…

I have wished in days when I am left in sorrow,
there would be a piece of heart for me to borrow.
From the person of admire,
whom I love and trust my soul in fire.
Falling into wild discussion,
in despair resolving puzzle of corruption.
I have wished, if only I could bear no stress,
to keep strength I still posses.
Until innocence of air refresh my mind,
just before I realize as far as I was blind.

Ты учил нас при жизни смеяться,
И весельем весь мир заражал,
Ты красиво умел выражаться,
В спорах громких с умом возражал.

Ты уйти навсегда не боялся,
"Все там будем", – ты нам говорил.
С нами ты так и не попрощался,
Потому, что не ты так решил.

Ты без плача, без крика, без зова
Отошёл в неизвестную даль.
Не сказав на прощанье ни слова,
Нам оставил тоску и печаль.

Смерть всегда вокруг нас рядом вьётся,
И у каждого свой срок и ранг.
Но как в песне печальной поётся:
"Only the...

Remember hours and minutes?
Remember happy a day?
Remember native “Pogranichnik”
Where we with you have met?

Remember camp and our arbour?
Remember lunar “Piatochok”?
Remember you my tender smile?
Remember you my shining eyes?

Do you remember the first touching?
And our close embraces too?
Remember me nice-looking girl?
Remember that a lovely moment?

You not remember? You Forgot?
Forgot your promises
Where is that moment, where?
You shouted or didn’t say a word?

It may...

Love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love,
Love
There's nothing you can do that can't be done
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung
Nothing you can say but you can learn
How to play the game
It's easy
There's nothing you can make that can't be made
No one you can save who can't be saved
Nothing you can do but you can learn
How to be you in time
It's easy
All you need is love
All you need is love
All you need is love, love
Love is all you need
There is nothing you can know...

Can't buy me love oh love oh
Can't buy me love oh
I'll buy you a diamond ring my friend
If it makes you feel all right
I'll get you anything my friend
If it makes you feel all right
'cause I don't care too much for money
For money can't buy me love
I'll give you all I got to give
If you say you love me too
I may not have a lot to give
But what I've got I'll give to you
'cause I don't care too much for money
For money can't buy me love
Can't buy me love oh everybody tells me so
Can...

I was searching for peace of mind
Always
I was afraid not to find it
Never
There was only a pain

And then I have risen
Above all illusory worlds
yeah

Wonderful Emptiness destroys thoughtforms
It is inside of me
There are no more sufferings because of alien desires

Everything is only illusion
Look into yourself and you'll find a Truth
You are on the right Way
Stop, dont run
Listen to silence...
There is nothing here

Close your eyes and look ahead
Forward of yourself
All...

всё
выдавил
художник
из всех тюбиков
растекается палитра
всеми цветами
радужным маслом
завораживающе переливается
медленно
красный втекает в желтый
наблюдаю забыв про все
такая любовь


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