Youre

So, what shall I tell you, does anybody know?
How can I show you what is hidden deep below?

I can’t control this, it’s growing inside.
Questioning myself – why should I hide?

Feelings are complex, no way to get free,
But I’ll not kill them, I’ll let them just be.

Looking into your eyes, what am I waiting?
Do you understand me or am I mistaken?

This is forbidden, but it’s not a sin.
All of my life – where have you been?

no matter what I do,
no matter what I say,
no matter how I feel,
I know we'll be together someday.
You've been pulled away from me,
so I helped to push you back,
now I know what I lack.
I miss your arms around me,
and when I used to giggle.
I miss you touching me,
that always made me wiggle.
I know we'll be together someday,
I know fate will have it's way.
It's our destiny.

Searching for pacification,
need inside of you.
Getting back humiliation,
from the one surrounding you.

Pleased with what you have,
thinking that you're gifted.
Is that all, that you can have,
on your way that's drifted.

There's obstacle inside ourselves,
dealing with the problem.
Never let it go itself,
don't rely at random.

I have been temperate always,
But I am like to be very drunk
With your coming.
There have been times
I feared to walk dawn he street
Lest I should reel with the wine of you,
And jerk against my neighbors
As they go by.
I am parched now, and my tongue is horrible in my mouth,
But my brain id noisy
With the clash and gurgle of filling wine-cups.

Эми Лоуэлл

Предчувствие


Умеренность – давний мой стиль,
Но снова – едва ты приходишь
Пьянею – и нет моих сил –
В соблазн...

Богами вам еще даны
Златые дни, златые ночи,
И томных дев устремлены
На вас внимательные очи.
Играйте, пойте, о друзья!
Утратьте вечер скоротечный;
И вашей радости беспечной
Сквозь слезы улыбнуся я.

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TO MY FRIENDS

For you the gods but briefly will
Give golden days and golden nights,
With languor lovely maidens will
Will cast upon you watchful eyes.
So sing and gambol, friends, the while!
Spend every hour of fleet eve’s racing?
And at your carefree merrymaking
I’ll look...

Is this the real life -
Is this just fantasy -
Caught in a landslide -
No escape from reality -
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see -
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy -
Because I'm easy come, easy go,
A little high, little low,
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me,
- to me -,

Mama, just killed a men,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead,
Mama, life had just begun,
but now I've gone and thrown it all away -
Mama, ooo,
Didn't...

Remember hours and minutes?
Remember happy a day?
Remember native “Pogranichnik”
Where we with you have met?

Remember camp and our arbour?
Remember lunar “Piatochok”?
Remember you my tender smile?
Remember you my shining eyes?

Do you remember the first touching?
And our close embraces too?
Remember me nice-looking girl?
Remember that a lovely moment?

You not remember? You Forgot?
Forgot your promises
Where is that moment, where?
You shouted or didn’t say a word?

It may...

I want to break free
I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self-satisfied I don't need you
I want to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen inlove
I've fallen inlove for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen inlove - yeah
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love

It's strange but it's true
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure
When I walk out that door
Oh how I want...

I was searching for peace of mind
Always
I was afraid not to find it
Never
There was only a pain

And then I have risen
Above all illusory worlds
yeah

Wonderful Emptiness destroys thoughtforms
It is inside of me
There are no more sufferings because of alien desires

Everything is only illusion
Look into yourself and you'll find a Truth
You are on the right Way
Stop, dont run
Listen to silence...
There is nothing here

Close your eyes and look ahead
Forward of yourself
All...

It was like dream and such unusual
That feelings flared up inside,
My soul was singing and exultant
And admiration flew from ayes
Expressing feelings’ biggest size!

My dear friend, you built this castle
And even you don’t understand
There is no way of your creation
Somebody could evaluate!!!

10.10.2005
Alla Gosyeyeva